Sometimes I just wish I could curl up and just… watch the world go by, without having to participate. Today seems to be one of those days. I want to curl up with my cats and my laptop, and just ignore all the responsibilities I have outside.
And I have to remind myself, near constantly right now, that Ineedto go. I need to move. And it’s so hard that I want to cry and scream. But I’m going to do force myself to anyway. Because that’s what I’ve been told to do, as an adult.
I hate it. I just want to be left alone. But I can’t be, because I’ll get worse, and I’ll fade away, and I’ll die if I do that.